Hello? Are you there God?

It’s me, Erica.

So, calling it quits? Guess not. Why? Well… Here we go.

Basically, I have a lot on my plate. I found myself trying to decide to a journal today or do I write a post today? And, I kept choosing journaling. I didn’t have the heart for this, I didn’t have the energy for this. I wasn’t feeling inspired to write an entire blog post. So I prayed, and prayed and prayed. And I *thought* God was telling me to put this on the back burner for a while. That was a lie. The king of lies, deceived me.

For more than a couple months, I’ve been looking for someone to disciple. I’ve been called to disciple someone. I want to be someone’s Paul. I want someone to be my Timothy. A couple funny things about this. One, I have someone to disciple in my own home. My husband. -That’s an entirely different post. So stay tuned.- Two, lately, I’ve had an outpouring of questions: “Why did you quit your blog?” “You have such a talent. Why would you quit?” “You can reach so many people.” So let’s answer those real quick. I quit because I didn’t have time. I have a 9 month old who is crawling and getting into everything. And I would prefer if he didn’t remember his mom behind a computer screen constantly. I have such talent? No, thank you, but no. God has talent and He’s using me. Everything I say is from God. Reaching so many people? Not necessarily. I have this small corner of the internet. I have friends and such. But I never want people to feel like I’m preaching. Because I’m not.

So, now that’s been discussed…

I was laying in bed last night, praying. Slowly drifting off. Trying to stay awake to finish my prayers. And, like I said, I’ve been asking to find someone to disciple. And suddenly, this surge of ideas for the blog came up. I’m not kidding when I say have like a long list of topics to write about. It was just like God was telling me He has a plan for me, and here are some ways to execute that.

My birthday was a few weeks ago, and right before my birthday was when I announced I was taking a break. Well, then my dad purchased me a website domain. So just another sign from God.

So why are we really here? I wanted to explain and also talk about hearing God verses hearing Satan. I was in this really awesome ladies night in at church and the speaker was talking about this. She said,  if what you’re hearing is taking you away from God, it’s Satan. Drawing you nearer to Him is God. What a powerful statement. But what about when it gets complicated. Like with my break. I thought I was drawing nearer to God because I was journaling. And I have. But I feel like instagram/facebook is never enough space to truly say what I learned about the scripture.

What are you putting off that God is calling you to? Is He calling you to go to Africa and spread His word? Is He calling you to invite that cashier to our church? Is He calling you to finally tell your friend who doesn’t really believe, all the wonderful things you get to experience? Or maybe, you’re the person needing to accept Jesus. Maybe you have been sticking your toes in the water to see if it’s for you. Maybe, just maybe, you need to stop testing the waters and jump in. If you’re a non-believer- What if all of us “crazy christians” are right? What if you’re the one who is wrong? Are you comfortable with spending your eternity in agony? Are you comfortable with spending the rest of your days not searching for someone? Are you comfortable?

Proverb a Day! [4/5]

Hello! I’m just gonna add these two together! And unfortunately I’m not gonna talk about them very much because it’s bed time. And we have had a long day! I will come back to these for sure though because they were awesome!

Proverbs 4 was a really awesome passage. More along the lines of the past 3 chapters of staying away from evil. And I love the passage I chose, but to be honest, I’m not that happy with the page I did. It didn’t turn out the way it did in my heart. So I will probably go back and either cover it completely, or try to add some doodles to spice it up a little.

Proverbs 5 was a good reminder. I always enjoy reading where the ten commandments are explained a little more. It was about adultery and why you should stay away. It’s always nice to reread that. I as a married woman, not that I’m ever tempted, enjoy things that pertain to my life directly. I can’t imagine ever even wanting to cheat on my husband. But, it’s a rule I enjoy hearing. If that makes any sense at all. I chopped off the first part of this verse because it’s slightly inappropriate for this specific setting. [Talks about breasts] and that’s just a little more personal than I prefer to be! But the latter part of the verse is gold.

Sorry today is short and just pure journaling. I’m so tired. And am burning the candle at both ends lately. Finally my husband has his day off tomorrow, so I will be able to get caught up on the necessary household stuff and hopefully get some real quiet time. 
Dear Lord, be with the people that are reading this blog, and bless them and their heart. Listen to their needs and make your will done through them. Remind them of the important things and let go of what’s not important. In your son’s name I pray, Amen.

Proverb a Day [3]

Salutations my friends! It’s been a busy couple days! So this was actually written yesterday. Sorry for the late post! But I will double post tomorrow!

One of my good friends came to church this morning. And man was it a good sermon. You know how sometimes when you invite a friend to church you want them to like it so much, the only thing you can focus on is how they are liking the sermon and how they are taking it? Not today. I didn’t have time to focus on how my friend was feeling because it was really hitting home in my own heart. I enjoyed the speaker’s testimony of his life and how you just need to follow what God is telling you. And to not be prideful and think you can do it on your own. Because too many times have I tried to take my own wheel and do it on my own. That’s just not how it works. You have to have God lead and guide you. Or else you won’t get anywhere.

Proverbs 3 had a lot that spoke to me. Of course there is the common favorite verse 5. Which leads right back to the sermon today. But because that verse is so strong on it’s own, people tend to forget to keep reading. Like verses 6-8 really hit home with me today too. Acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths. Similar to my blog yesterday. Then, don’t be wise in your own eyes and turn from evil. Don’t think you’ve got it all on your own. And turn away from evil. I tend to forget that last part. I think I can be around evil and not partake in it. Which, was mentioned again today in the sermon. [Guys, the sermon was really stinking good.] And then in verse 8, it will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones. Maybe it’s just me, but that makes me feel calm and relaxed. It’s comforting to hear.

Proverbs 3:14-15 was what I chose to do my journaling over. I thought it would be a lot of fun. I think some people get this confused with a woman. I don’t believe it’s talking about women at all. I think it’s referring to the wisdom and understanding. And that makes a lot of sense.

Verses 25-27 I think are really important in this day and age. With all that’s going on in the world, and I won’t get in to politics because this isn’t the place for it, but I think these verses are crucial to remember. Do not be afraid of sudden terror…the Lord will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught. Do not withhold good to those who it’s owed when you can provide the good. Any normal church official would immediately turn verse 27 into tithing. And I encourage you to tithe. We tithe what we can, and when we can. We are working on discipline to do it even when we can’t and to work up to the 10% God asks of us. But truly, even if it’s not tithing, giving to the needy or poor would work as well! There’s just something so gratifying about giving to others without expecting anything at all in return.

Well that’s all I have for this chapter. I just really felt like God was truly speaking to me. And those are the best days of all. I hope you all had a blessed day.

Dear Lord, lead those that read this entry to seek and gain your knowledge and to use it for good and keep them thirsting and hungry for you and for your word. Remind us that we can’t do this alone, we need you. Every part of us needs you and all that you do for us. Help us to recognize that, and to crave that. In your son’s name I pray, Amen.

Proverb a day! [2]

Hello! Day 2! Shockingly, I didn’t get to do this early this morning. I’ve kind of been working on it throughout the day while Lucas naps and such.

So this was Proverbs 2. I really enjoyed this chapter. Especially verse 20. I feel like it kind of fits my theme to my year. I want to stay on the path of the righteous and walk in the way of the good! I think everyone really does. But that verse I felt just fit my life at this moment. And really enjoyed painting this one.

But, I painted and then wrote. Well my beloved sharpie no bleed pens did not like writing on paint. At all. Dried the tip out. And so now I’m gonna have to find another pen. I will update you as soon as I find what I want. To finish this post, I just used a regular fine tip sharpie. And yes, it did bleed through. So if I eventually decide to do the page behind this, I’m going to just do embelishments to hide that.

I will try to do that tomorrow on top of chapter 3. Let me know if anyone is joining me in this! I would love to see your work and hear what verses stand out to you!

-Even if you’re not journaling with me, I hope you’re reading the chapters with me! And even then, I would still love to hear what verses you enjoy!-

Dear Lord, thank you for this day and giving me the energy and conviction to see this through another day. Thank you to all the people reading this and staying with me. Help me continue to reach to others. And help all who are reading to continue to stay hungry for your bread. Keep all of us in the path of the righteous. And to walk in the way of the good. In your sons name I pray, Amen.

Proverb a Day!

Happy New Year!!! I hope all of your evenings were fun and wonderful and filled with love, laughter, friends and family!

Now normally, I don’t do new years resolutions. Honestly, I don’t like breaking promises especially when they are to myself. Not a fan. But, this year, I have made a few! And to keep myself accountable, I will share the less personal ones (which I have shared with family).

Top resolution: Glorify God in all I do every day.
I know. That sounds kinda silly. Like, “Shouldn’t you be doing that already?” Yeah. I should. But I haven’t. I try. Mostly, if I’m honest, when it’s convenient. But, every thing I do should be to the glory of God. And I’m going to make more of a point to that.
Resolution 2: Proverb a day for the month of January.
Well I want to start with a bang! I want this year to really benefit my faith and strengthen the specific parts of my life. So, Proverb a Day! Get my mind set and focused!
Resolution 3: Spend every month in a specific study.
Oh yeah. After January, I’m hitting it hard! I want to learn all I can this year. I want to be sitting at December 31st, 2016 and say, “Whoa. I know so much more than I did.” Yes!

And of course, you’ll be with me through this journey! I hope to hear your resolutions too!

My first goal is to do a Proverb a Day. And journal. Yaaaasss. Journal! I want to dive in, head first to the world of journaling and hopefully it will exceed my past studies and help me remember!

And today I had a bit of a rocky start if I’m gonna be honest. Once again, I was exhausted, and slept in. We had a pretty packed day. We took down Christmas, my mom sent me to the store, we watched War Room (which was unbelievably fantastic and inspiring!!!) and then had New Years dinner per annual tradition. On top of being at my son’s beck and call as every day goes, all of that is a lot. So to get quiet time to myself? Leave it to the life of being a mom to only have it early in the morning, (which was not the case today, nor is it usually the case any day. I like my sleep.) or late at night. As I am doing now. But I really wanted to get it posted today. So, here I am, for y’all!

Proverbs 1! The beginning of knowledge!

I really enjoyed this. And personally, verse 7, stuck out to me the most. So therefore that’s what I journaled. No rhyme or reason to my method. I wanted something original. I wanted something fun. But also, I needed something not as detailed, because it’s already 11:30. This took me all in all about an hour. That includes my prayer time, my read time and my journal time. I made sure to promise myself to not stress about perfection. And this also isn’t to show off any ‘art skills’ I may have. This is purely for me and me alone.

Just some simple lettering and water colors. Nothing too fancy. So tomorrow will be day 2! And wish me luck. I am hoping to wake up before my son for quiet time. But I really like my sleep.

Dear Lord, I pray that you allow Proverbs 1 to jump out. Make it easily relatable and speak to someone who needs it. Thank you for everything you do. For that, I am not personally worthy. I hope you take our lives this year and change them for the better. I pray you continue to use me to reach to all those who need a hand and to guide me to guide others to you. Let us take the wisdom and instruction others give us, and to not be so quick to dismiss. In your son’s name I pray, Amen.

Bible Journaling: What I Use

I meant to do this yesterday. But there was so much to do yesterday. Plus my son, Lucas, decided to wake up 7 times the night before and I wasn’t having that so I slept in while my momma watched him for a bit. (Because she’s super awesome.)

So, I’m starting bible journaling. Bible journaling is really a great way for hands on, creative types to really connect with the bible. I am hands on and my creative mind won’t shut up half the time. Growing up, my bulletin from Sunday service inevitably had doodles all over. Sometimes, I had to steal my mom’s to draw on too. So to hear about bible journaling, I was instantly intrigued. It is perfect for me.

Normally, I don’t remember what I read; whether I read it aloud or silently to myself. I have terrible reading comprehension. So from what I’ve read, this could help! So here is my list of supplies. I know this list will grow. If I had about $200 to blow on myself and my hobbies, I would have a much longer list. I got all my supplies from Hobby Lobby. Minus the bible which was purchased from Mardel’s. And you can get it much cheaper online. Clicking all the pictures should send you to a link of where to find such items.

ESV Single Column Journaling Bible – To be honest, I’ve never used ESV, I am an NIV kind of girl. So reading a new translation should be fun. Worse case scenario, I just use one of my hundred other bibles or the app on my phone. But I think this is gorgeous! And who doesn’t love a brand new bible?
Washi Tape – I saw washi tape from Taz and Belly who is another bible journaler/blogger who is a lot of my inspiration. I found this at hobby lobby for $4. But apparently they are also at target in the dollar section. I haven’t seen them, nor have I gone looking for them either. But I will get back to you on that.
Prismacolor Magic Rub – This is for erasing my pencil marks. It doesn’t rub into a nasty color some other erasers. And it also doesn’t smear my ink. 
Elmer’s Craft Bond Glue – I’ve been using this for about a year now I think. And I use it for all my crafts. I’m a pretty big fan because it has a precision tip and a larger side for bigger projects.
Bazzill Basics Paper – Card stock! And my favorite color as of late, gold. This was $7.
More card stock. I’ve had these since July 2014 for my bridal shower. People wrote encouraging notes and advice on the back. This was left over so I’m not positive where this came from. But knowing me, most likely hobby lobby. They have a lot of choices. I will use these card stocks for tabbing and embellishments!
Crayola Watercolors – Simple crayola watercolors. Nothing fancy. Got this big pack for $5 maybe? I just loved all the colors! I almost got these instead. But went with traditional because I’m afraid of change.
These are my writers. Yeah, that’s what I’m gonna go with. First is just a simple mechanical pencil. Nothing special except the color, which happens to be my favorite, purple. The next is my pen. This is the Sharpie pen. It’s bleed free. Then we have what I will use for white, which is a Tree House Studio Paint Markers. This size is my favorite because its a fine point.  And of course, we have a paint brush. This is the same one that came with the watercolors. Nothing special. 
So like I said, it’s a short list. And as it grows, I will let you know what I find! And how I like it! But now, my son is asleep, my husband is asleep. So I get my quiet time. And I’m gonna journal for the first day! Hopefully, I will have the outcome later tonight!
Once again, happy new years y’all! 

This house

Hello ladies!

Can I get a HELLO HOLIDAYS. Whoa. Sorry for my absence. It’s been a long holiday season for us. Thanksgiving, then Christmas and soon New Years. Just a lot going on for my little family.

Around the holidays it just seems like relationships get a little messier and hours become seconds and sleep becomes nonexistent. So to recharge, refuel and refocus for the new year, I thought I would go over something that truly inspired me.

Normally in the car, I don’t have a set station to listen to. I really hate all the holiday commercials and all the extra stuff. I really just like the music. I have a few stations that I stick to. But, my favorite, especially when I’m feeling a little discouraged, need some encouragement, I’m angry and need a boost and hit the reset button, I listen to KLove. I’ve done the KLove 30 day challenge where its the only thing you listen to. And it truly was amazing. But, when you listen to KLove for a year straight, nothing else, you start to hear the same songs over and over again. So probably about 6 months ago, I changed the station for the first time, and took a break from the same songs. But the other night, I was running to walmart for a quick trip and on the way home all the stations were commercials and so I flipped it back to KLove. My favorite thing about KLove is there are no commercials. Just positive messages in-between songs. And one positive message I heard was truly inspiring.

Luke 16:10 Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much.

Simply saying, if you can be trusted with the small things, like promising your mom you’ll clean your room for one week straight and then not following through with it, (personal shoutout to my mom who dealt with my empty promises all the time) then how can she trust you when you say you’re spending the night with your friend and you ‘won’t do anything stupid.’ (personal shoutout to my mom who dealt with my lies about not doing anything stupid all the time)

That was always my mom and dad’s favorite thing to say. “Well Erica, you lost our trust. You have to build it back up.” Because trust me, I lost my parents trust a lot and did a lot of building it back up. And my mom would always say, “Well, if you can keep your room clean for a week, you can go to the movies.” In my 16 year old head, that was her way of trying to make me clean and do something I didn’t want to do just to be mean. Which, as I’m writing that I’m laughing because I was just so irrational. But it’s true. That’s how I felt and that’s how I saw the world. My mom wasn’t doing anything to help me or better my life later on, she was just being mean and manipulative. Sitting here at 24, I feel like an idiot because I should have listened to her more. But I didn’t and now my life isn’t picture perfect. By the way, literally no one’s is. Not even Kim Kardashian. Building up trust meant nothing to me. It didn’t make any sense. So, let me explain it to you in a way that might help you grasp the concept.

A brick house. It’s not built in a day. It takes months to build a house. And you don’t lay all the brick at once, you have to take the cement and place each brick carefully. You slowly build a wall.  So think of each piece of a house as trust. I failed a class in high school. And when I failed said class, my parents took everything out of my room. All I had left was a boxspring, a mattress and a desk and chair. No pictures, no tv, literally NOTHING. No, not even clothes. My mom picked out my clothes for 2 straight weeks. And purposefully picked out clothes and outfits I hated. Slowly, I started earning things back in my room. I had to build the trust back up. They trusted me when I said I didn’t have homework, they trusted me when I said I studied for that test I had the next day. They trusted me at my word. So when they realized I lied about it all, I had no house. Just an empty lot. So slowly, I built my house of trust. Started with the foundation, worked my way to the frame, put up a roof, worked my way to the dry wall and then brick by brick, I built this house of trust. Each little thing I did, each assignment, each time I came straight home from school, each time I came home straight from practice or work, was another piece of the house. When I finally had a stable enough frame around the house, they allowed me to go out with my friends again. And each time I came home on time for curfew, or call and check in, or was where I said I was, was another brick. And eventually, there stood this house in front of us of trust. And once the trust was there I got my life back.

God does the same thing. He trusts us to make the right decisions. He gave us the power of free will to make decisions on our own. He doesn’t want to force us into Him. He wants us to choose Him. Every second. Every minute. Every hour. Every day. And we build a trust up with him. And soon, we have a house of trust with Him. And when we do, he will give us HUGE responsibilities. He will put a person in our life that truly needs Him. And he will trust us to lead said person to Him. Every time we pray, every time we do the right thing, every time we choose to not sin and try to live Jesus’ perfect life, we earn a little bit of cement and brick to lay. We earn a nail to nail down that roof. And we eventually build this sturdy home to hold our love and trust and forgiveness Jesus gives us.

You have to do the small things to earn the big things. People don’t just start out as CEO’s of large companies. They work their way up the ladder to earn that position. It’s not an overnight process. It’s something you build your entire life.

So for the new year, lets start from scratch. Lets build a beautiful home together. And lets earn those tools. Lets start working with the little stuff to earn the big stuff.

Dear Lord, thank you for bringing the people to my page to read this message you’ve filled me with and thank you for giving me the strength and encouragement to write it. I pray that these beautiful people read my message, and get exactly what they need out of it. Let them be inspired for the new year. Let this reach to all those whom you need it to reach. Let your message be perfected and individualized to each person who reads this. Let them realize that loving you is a long term journey, and it’s best to start as soon as possible. In your son’s name I pray, Amen.