It’s me, Erica.
So, calling it quits? Guess not. Why? Well… Here we go.
Basically, I have a lot on my plate. I found myself trying to decide to a journal today or do I write a post today? And, I kept choosing journaling. I didn’t have the heart for this, I didn’t have the energy for this. I wasn’t feeling inspired to write an entire blog post. So I prayed, and prayed and prayed. And I *thought* God was telling me to put this on the back burner for a while. That was a lie. The king of lies, deceived me.
For more than a couple months, I’ve been looking for someone to disciple. I’ve been called to disciple someone. I want to be someone’s Paul. I want someone to be my Timothy. A couple funny things about this. One, I have someone to disciple in my own home. My husband. -That’s an entirely different post. So stay tuned.- Two, lately, I’ve had an outpouring of questions: “Why did you quit your blog?” “You have such a talent. Why would you quit?” “You can reach so many people.” So let’s answer those real quick. I quit because I didn’t have time. I have a 9 month old who is crawling and getting into everything. And I would prefer if he didn’t remember his mom behind a computer screen constantly. I have such talent? No, thank you, but no. God has talent and He’s using me. Everything I say is from God. Reaching so many people? Not necessarily. I have this small corner of the internet. I have friends and such. But I never want people to feel like I’m preaching. Because I’m not.
So, now that’s been discussed…
I was laying in bed last night, praying. Slowly drifting off. Trying to stay awake to finish my prayers. And, like I said, I’ve been asking to find someone to disciple. And suddenly, this surge of ideas for the blog came up. I’m not kidding when I say have like a long list of topics to write about. It was just like God was telling me He has a plan for me, and here are some ways to execute that.
My birthday was a few weeks ago, and right before my birthday was when I announced I was taking a break. Well, then my dad purchased me a website domain. So just another sign from God.
So why are we really here? I wanted to explain and also talk about hearing God verses hearing Satan. I was in this really awesome ladies night in at church and the speaker was talking about this. She said, if what you’re hearing is taking you away from God, it’s Satan. Drawing you nearer to Him is God. What a powerful statement. But what about when it gets complicated. Like with my break. I thought I was drawing nearer to God because I was journaling. And I have. But I feel like instagram/facebook is never enough space to truly say what I learned about the scripture.
What are you putting off that God is calling you to? Is He calling you to go to Africa and spread His word? Is He calling you to invite that cashier to our church? Is He calling you to finally tell your friend who doesn’t really believe, all the wonderful things you get to experience? Or maybe, you’re the person needing to accept Jesus. Maybe you have been sticking your toes in the water to see if it’s for you. Maybe, just maybe, you need to stop testing the waters and jump in. If you’re a non-believer- What if all of us “crazy christians” are right? What if you’re the one who is wrong? Are you comfortable with spending your eternity in agony? Are you comfortable with spending the rest of your days not searching for someone? Are you comfortable?